October 24th, 1989
I feel like I’m in a nightmare.
I know I still love him.
I feel heartbroken.
I know I must be crazy for even considering talking to him ever again.
I feel like it’s impossible to turn off how I feel about him.
I know that nothing will ever be the same between us.
I feel even sadder than I did back in June.
But the thing I know the most is that I can’t imagine my life without him in it.